In
my early twenties I attempted to become a “literary” writer. Although I may have
had noble intentions, numerous factors contributed to my first stories ending
up as failures. I had studied English literature as an undergraduate, reading the
required classics, and hardly a substantial amount of contemporary works. Approaching
a text from a creative writer’s perspective remained a foreign concept in light
of all the academic emphasis on developing a “critical eye.” How or why a
writer employed certain elements of craft, such as point of view or narrative
moment, were elusive decisions to me, even though I could identify those elements
easily. Because I hadn’t read enough current authors, my concept of
contemporary literary fiction was cloudy. “Character driven” fiction seemingly meant
to write with “plotlessness,” for I couldn’t yet see the ways literary writers
intricately incorporated plot in contemporary works. This preconception formed
a bad habit of my writing, resulting in stories where nothing much happened by
the end.
The UCF MA in
Writing program, and later, MFA in Writing at Vermont College of Fine Arts,
pushed me to remedy these novice tendencies by providing arenas in which to
study and discuss a variety of contemporary authors. I realized that for my
writing to work, I needed to learn how to decisively engage with craft:
protagonists needed to be active, scenes needed setting up and paying off, and
engaging the audience meant developing more structured plots with definite
conflict. I needed to revise and edit my own work in a scrupulous manner to
achieve this level of quality.
For
the first part of the UCF program, I tried to write a novel that became a
struggle I had to reluctantly abandon. The experience proved worthwhile,
because throughout I could see the patterns of what didn’t work in my fiction. Often
the plot meandered or became simply episodic. At times, clarity was obscured by
long-winded prose, and it was difficult to keep the alternating first person
viewpoints unique. I made the decision to switch and work on contemporary short
stories for my thesis with certain goals in mind. Most importantly, I needed to
work on tighter focus, deeper characters, and dramatic structure. I still
wanted the challenge of working with a particular group of characters living in
a certain location, only without the risk of getting bogged down with the
intricacies and bulk of a novel. The best way to achieve my aim was to
structure the collection as an interconnected group of short stories.
I
looked to several authors to provide both stylistic and structural models, in
particular, Louise Erdrich, Amy Tan, Carson McCullers, and Lorrie Moore. In different
ways, these writers similarly explore themes present in my collection, Bistro Girls, namely, the sometimes
joyous but often painful journey of relationships that have their roots in love
and insecurity, showing how artificially-built expectations often result in disappointment.
The
short stories and novellas of Carson McCullers do not contain an interconnected
structure, but share such a distinct sense of place and types of characters
intrinsic to the American South that the work exhibits an “interconnected”
quality. Reading McCullers inspired the prevalent theme of the stories in Bistro Girls. McCullers says in The Ballad of the Sad Café that the
state of being loved is “intolerable” to many people due to the lover’s
continuous attempts to try and “strip bare” his or her beloved. For McCullers
this occurs for the character of Miss Amelia after adopting her newly beloved
Cousin Lymon, only to have him abandon her years later and go off with Marvin
Macy. As a result, Miss Amelia becomes an embittered old woman, much like her
old lover, Macy. Having once had his affections spurned by Miss Amelia, Macy plummets
into a life of destroying others and himself.
My
stories “The Coffee Shop” and “Disconnect” are variations on this theme. I chose
to use omniscient narration for “The Coffee Shop” to reveal the relationship
between Valerie and Don in a more “slice of life” manner, in contrast to the
closer narrative viewpoints in the other stories centered on these characters. Valerie’s
despair is painfully apparent in her conversation with Don, and he combats her
endless straining to “capture” him as her beloved. A better understanding of
Don’s inability to shake off his feeling of “entrapment” even after breaking up
with Valerie is illustrated through the third person perspective of
“Disconnect.” His inner conflict culminates in the realization that failing to
reconcile his feelings will ultimately cause him more pain, but he remains
unable to emotionally overcome this. The moment of actual “disconnect” occurs
in the final sentence, when “He didn’t want to face the pain if seeing his
number, she didn’t answer the phone.” Even though he set up the events so that
he expected finality, Don still feels disappointment for his failings
concerning himself. He is forever a man who will never be completely satisfied.
Don proved the most difficult to fully render, but I was drawn to the
complexity of constructing an eccentric, controversial male character.
Love
as an “entrapment” largely brought on by the individual’s insecurities is a
main cause of conflict for this cast of characters. The fear of “entrapment” and
subsequent disappointment translates into friendships as well as romantic
relationships. In “Bistro Girls,” Valerie questions her idea of friendship after
she learns Lori once worked as a stripper. Rachel’s demise into addiction makes
any decision to befriend a reformed “bad girl” like Lori a serious one. Though
still having reservations about Lori, Valerie has grown past this at the time “Bobby
Blues” takes place, and her reluctance is of a different sort, this time
concerning Lori’s whimsical nature. There, a closer friendship between the two
women evolves in the foreground, parallel to Valerie’s dilemma with Bobby. In
this instance, I examined the works of Amy Tan and Louise Erdrich to learn how
to display pivotal moments of character growth. Tan’s mother-daughter focus and
Erdrich’s navigation of many female dynamics with her characters Sister Leopolda,
Marie, and Lulu maximize the benefits of an interconnected structure. Each
story works like a magnifying glass to bring certain characters’ situations
front and center, leaving others more tertiary.
The
disappointment of love founded on insecurity and false expectation takes a
different turn in “Scout’s Honor,” a story more similar to Lorrie Moore's fiction in
style and tone. Like the characters of Olena and Nick in Moore ’s “Community Life,” Scout and Harry try
to keep the threads of their unraveling romance together, even to the point of
going through with the wedding. Neither wants to confront the truth until Scout
finally accepts that she must end their relationship. She nearly succeeds in
deceiving herself about her own insecurities until the final note, when her
finger “throbbed and ached, alive.” She can no longer hide if she desires to
mature beyond what led her to the marriage mistake, and facing the truth means
pain. Finally she heads in the right direction, though the sense of hope
remains slight at best, for Scout has a great deal to learn from her
experience.
This
ending perhaps doesn’t have the optimistic potential that the resolution of
“Bobby Blues” does, with the protagonist, Valerie, driving off to “check out
some new scenery.” A distinct epiphany occurs as she discards her need to
identify herself through her relationships with men, though only temporary. “Scout’s
Honor” has the potential for a more upbeat ending like “Bobby Blues,” but I
chose to intentionally bypass that avenue with a poignant image I believed to
be more true to the original development of the mood. The stark physical
discomfort of the finger at the end represents the surfacing of Scout’s
emotional pain and creates more of a final resonance. Likewise, in “Community
Life” Moore ’s
ending contains a similar bodily imagery, as Olena goes in for a routine
gynecology exam in which medical students participate: “There were rubber
fingers inside her, moving, wriggling around, but not like the others.” The
story ends on a strikingly disturbing note as Moore uses the outward physical discomfort to
match the inward suffering of the protagonist.
I
encountered numerous benefits and drawbacks working in this interconnected
format. It was more liberating than a novel in that spans of time could be
jumped over, yet at other times it felt confining to leave out details and scope
that a novel format would allow, since novels are inextricably about time. “Scout’s
Honor” stood out as more disconnected in character and subject matter, so I had
to figure out how to place Scout in another story, even just briefly, to make
it a true “interconnected” collection. Now and then, this structure distracted
me from keeping purely focused on one story at a time: working repeatedly with
the same characters it was tempting to think of the stories more like chapters,
not stand-alone stories. Thus, I have gained great admiration for Louise
Erdrich’s mastery of writing a range of stories from characters in this
fashion, achieving the breadth of a world’s interdependent circumstances within
the often limiting demands of individual stories. However, I feel this
structure greatly allowed me to achieve my aims for the collection in creating a
cast of fleshed-out characters and plotlines grown from the same setting.
Bistro Girls: Stories by Vanessa Blakeslee was
twice named a finalist in the Sol Books Prose Series Contest. Stories from
the collection have been published in storySouth , Harpur Palate, The Hurricane Review, Eureka Literary
Magazine, and Concho River Review, among others. "Bobby Blues" was
named a finalist in the 2009 Mighty River Short Story Contest at Big
Muddy.
